Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Reality

I'm sitting in a bookstore, drinking espresso, starring out the window, contemplating my world. My world is so different now compared to 3 yrs ago. My boys are teens/preteens. I've got a full time job, career even. My husband is working jobs that don't require a tie. I have little free time, yet I still carve it out. My house is a wreck, like I said, I'm carving out free time. I'm back to running. I'm less afraid of the workout gym. Still have climbing gym apprehensions. Homeschooling is something I so value, but man, planning can be overwhelming. Good thing life is a giant lesson with a million unit studies to build off.  Fitting everything into 24 hrs is impossible. 1 day at a time. Forgive me if my kids don't know every math fact we've long forgotten. They are busy learning Japanese, computer coding, how to navigate this media filled technology based world, and of course geography. One must know about the land, people, cultures, and wonders of this world. I'm sure other parents feel the same about math as I do social studies. Maybe I should have been a social studies teacher. I want them to have knowledge but I want more than anything for them to know how to look up; appreciate the stars, the sky, the trees, the possibilities. I want them to be critical thinkers, self motivated, and intrinsically rewarded. Of course monetary compensation is how our world works, so they need to be able to translate their love and passion into a career. Which brings me back to the espresso, bookstore, and that overwhelming need to plan lessons.